Going My Way

 I said in the previous post that I want to go to job training center and to do so, I should consult a specialist of job hunting in my clinic, but I must quit this choice for private reason. So, I am at a loss about my future. I want to go to job training service, but I should consider how to explain my situation to her. I want to ask her of it in the way that I propose some options which I should go in order to get job. It is prefer to show other choices not to make explicit the choice of job training center. Anyway, I want to consult her in the near future not by asking about job training center, but by telling her that I worry about my future.

 I started to think about my future. Now I work at Buona82 as a member of B type institution called Terra. My wage is less than minimum wage now, and I will not be able to maintain my lifestyle unless I earn more money. But, I feel that I'm lack in the fundamental ability to work as a worker for now, so I need training. I think it is also training to work at Terra, too. But I think I will not spend my whole life time there and I want to see my life by myself. But, to maintain my lifestyle, it is the fact that I must earn money. Do, I want to go to job training center. If permitted by authority, I will be able to have enough money as subsidy. It will be a good plan to have money to maintain my lifestyle and to grow up the ability which is needed for the job. Firstly, I want to consult the specialist of job hunting in my clinic and want to hear from her about my certification whether I can receive subsidy or not.

 I now go to the B type institution as a trainee of worker and my job is to wash a dishes or to serve a food for cooking. I had been to the training institution of workers to get a job, but my dream is to be a musician, so I thought that I will not be able to work as a ordinary worker for insufficient for the time for music. But, recently, I heard from my parents that money for my rent is now lack, so I thought I must earn money to be able to see my life circumstance only by myself. But, in delusion, I will be able to be a musician soon, so I don' t need to earn money by working as a ordinary worker. I feel that it is not clever to earn money in the field which is not suit my ability. It will be good for me to earn money by making most of my good features like music.  

 Today, I took part in the band activity to be ready for the next live at Kichijoji crescendo on July 8th. The name of the band is Julien Concasser. I have taken part in this band as a support keyboardist since May in last year and have performed 3 Live. We had done recording to make CD and this CD is on sale now. Subscription service is added for sales in recent days. If you search for the "Julien Concasser" on Youtube or several kind of streaming service, we are glad if you download our songs and listen to that music. Today, we had a new comer because we hired a staff. He also had an experience of band activity and we heard from him that he didn't make his original band, but he had kept on doing the band activity as a support member. On my way to my home, I became to be nervous about my ability of connecting with the people. I'm lack in the viewpoint of business, so I'm not good at making the "complete box" when trying to do something else. "Compl...

 Today, I and my friend were supposed to have a supper at Minaminagareyama. We talked about several kind of topics with each other and spent a joyful time. My new friend also create a music and he is drummer and guitarist. It was fun to talk with each other about music, rehabilitation, and daily life in day service. I felt that the existence of good others helps me to grow up me as a human. And I also want to be the existence of help others in the meaning of progressing as a human-being. Today's supper was about 5 hours. I wasn't exhausted in this time because I forgot to pass the time with happiness and joy. Joking was everywhere and we could talk about ourselves very honestly. We had a good time.