How to cope with my scribbling

 I analyzed that my wasteful scribbling is caused by two types of reasons.

1.Feeling of isolated, alone

When I feel isolated and alone, I have a tendency to write the wasteful scribbling on my twitter, mix and Facebook. 

The reason why I always do it seems to compensate my emptiness with words.

It is not a good idea. By the wasteful scribbling, I degrade my courtesy and dignity. The people who see my scribbling may have being reluctant to communicate with me...

It's not a good circulation for my mind health.

So, I want to cope with this feeling by reading books deeply.

I need a compensation for my emptiness . I want to fill it with reading deeply.

By making the thing that is to be thought in my mind, I want to make a good circulation of my mind.


2.Feeling of fulfilled, being arrogant with knowledge packed in my brain

When I feel fulfilled with knowledge, I have a tendency to emit it on twitter.

The reason why I always do it seems that I feel the power of knowledge in myself and be arrogant to say about it on SNS in order to show off myself.

It is not a good way because what I write on twitter on SNS sometimes bends in the wrong direction. The people who see my tweet about social problems ,etc may have thought that I am stupid because of the lack of knowledge.

So, I should make an opinion when I become mature as a commentator after the hard study.

I feel I'm cheap unless I study hard. It's a shame...

To cope with this action, I want to listen to HR/HM songs.

Whenever I listen to HR/HM songs, I feel the power.

I want to make it a rule to listen to that genre because by listening HR/HM songs, I can release my arrogance and my Almighty feelings to the sense, not words that is externalized in SNS like twitter.


I want to combine this 2 types of coping with my wasteful scrubbing from now on.



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