Recent Life

 Recently, my motivation to training is getting to be lower because I am not good at doing job.

I figure out that I can't probe into the complete result.

I tend to give up at early stage of something. I don't know if it is due to my innate characteristics or not, but it is the element which is essential when people try to master something.

Giving up means to give up to achieving the goal, I thought.

Although I don't want to give up my task, there exists what I am poor at in this world.

I want to change myself little by little by accepting my weak point and revising that point.

My supervisor told me that I'm lack in probing to achieve the goal.

I became to blame myself for it and began to be lack in confidence of what I have done for a long time.

It leads to denial of my hobby, music, too.

 But, I reconsidered that it is meaningless for me to get rotten with complain and hysteria on myself.

So, I want to impose the challenge on me ,which means that I just try to do what I decide to do.