What I think recently

 Recently, I lost the habit of studying.

I don't understand what I want to do now.

But, I made it a rule to study world history and English.

But , for what? I don't have the precise aim to do it now and I don't have the specific motivation of continuing this activity.

I work now and earn money which is under minimum wage.

So, life is hard for me and I can't buy what I want to buy and  I manage to live my life.

But, I'm not the person who has the ability to work in general.

My dream is to be a musician, but sometimes I worry about my future.

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